Its Easy On Paper…
I guess when we are at our lowest point we all can feel kind of worthless and useless, not being able to pay the bills to keep a phone line open, receiving letters from your credit card company till you that you NEED to pay X amount or that your in arrears by X amount, as if you didn’t already know that.
All we can do is simply get on with it because if we let all that stuff get us down, it’ll be difficult to get ourselves back up again.
Its easy to fall and really difficult to get back up, thats the way they like it, it means your always in a state of “Oh Shit” , they’ll get you a card and let you spend spend spend, then when your least expecting it, they kick you in the balls.
They could at least have a protocol for people who lost their job, especially in this climate, but no, “You signed a contract that said you’d pay each month” yeah, well when i signed that contract i didn’t expect to loose my job, did i?
I guarantee that once i finally pay off my credit card and ask them to never contact me again, i’ll still get letters in the post asking me if i want a new shiny credit card with 0% APR for the first 6 months.
I can’t pay with nothing, but then they’d rather i paid them instead of paying my other bills.
I’m still looking for work, and unfortunately it’ll most likely be in Security, which i hate incidentally, but beggars can’t be choosers i’ll take whatever comes my way, but nothing is coming my way. Over the last 6 weeks i’ve sent out tons of applications with an attached C.V. and i’m getting nothing back, no replies at all, which again helps to make me feel like i’m worthless, like just a number on my Security licence.
What can i do, to A, get back to work, and B, Get the credit card company off my back for a bit.
Right now i feel like a bag of shit, worthless, festering insect infested pile of crap. I would almost literally do anything, i say almost because i’m not quiet sure i want to brake the law, but thats not far off, trust me.
Do you ever feel like you wished you could go back in time and change things, make different decisions?
We live in a world where, the lower you are on the totem pole of life the more you have to do for yourself, there is no one out there who is going to do for you, if you want something you have to make it happen, which means lots of hard work, blood sweat and tears good old fashioned hard graft and positive thinking, YOU CAN DO IT kind of attitude.
– What do you want –
– How can you get it –
– What do you have to do to get there –
Right, now shut the fuck up and just do it.
unfortunately having a credit card company on your ass isn’t going to help none.
Right then, you know what to do,
- Get a job
- Clear credit card
- Save money – at the same time, prepare material
- Get your own place, your own space
- Make lots of videos, one ever few weeks, be consistent
- Buy new Computer and Camera
- Make better videos, become Youtube partner
- Make a future in film
- Make Fisk Film a brand name
See how easy that looks on paper, making it happen won’t be easy, but it is doable, all you need is focus, drive and motivation.