I am a Fucking Writer.

Right?I. Writer.

Well of course i am , i fucking write shit, i’m writing this blog that you’re reading right now, duh.

But am i really?

I’m writing now because i have nothing else to do, every other day of the week i’m working. And guess what i’m thinking about doing while i work. Yup, writing. I think about it most of the time because i have an active imagination. One that won’t fucking rest, it never lets me finish a thought before it needs to tell me something else, some other great idea for a narrative.

But is writing something i could do for a living, could writing actually earn me a pretty penny, could i sit here at my desk day in day out writing? I’d like to say yes, because i like doing it. And believe me i always have something to say. That is, while i’m out there doing stuff. Take recently, my new job, i have something new to say with few days about it. But without it, i have nothing. It would seem that i’m moaning all the time about my job, that’s probably a correct assumption. Because it is. With out it, i have nothing. I feel the need to write about this stuff because i feel that writing is the best tool i have to get this shit off my chest. I don’t do it because i want to expose or undermine, even if that’s how it comes off sometimes. I do it because i need to. This is how i feel right now. I can look back on this blog post in 5 years and know exactly how i felt and what was going through my head.

Do i need a shit job for this, no of course not. Do i need a job. Well yes, how else are the bills going to get paid. Can i live a simple life with out much of anything. Yep. So a part time job would be ideal. Yes it would. It would allow me to pay those bills and have more time to write. I would also be able to pay off my credit card, slowly, over many years but i’d be able to. That’s another thing that is killing me, that fucking credit card.

Could i start a Kickstarter account to clear it?

Hey folks, i need £5678.95 to clear my credit card debt, if you donate that money to me, i can do it, and then i’d be better suited to write without having to worry about the bailiffs or a debt collection agency coming to my house and taking away all my shit”

Yeah i doubt that’ll work. But hey, you can’t blame a guy for trying, right?

I guess the big question here is, am i really a writer. Or just a hobbyist. Is this something i do because i like doing it, or is it something i want to do to earn money. Or at least supplementary income. Is my writing good enough to get a freelance job writing for someone? a film magazine or a porn mag? or scientology weekly (i made that up) “Scientology, where we take all your money, so without us you have nothing. Not even the underwear you’re wearing right now, ’cause we own that too. Just wash them before returning them please, KTHXBYE”.

I could totally write for scientology weekly. “Because you need us. yeah, like a liver cancer“. (It’s okay, my Dad died of Liver cancer, so i can say that)

But seriously, do you think i write well enough to write professionally? If not just say so, i have thick skin. I may cry and spend the rest of the night in the fettle position, but i’m sure in a few weeks i’ll get over your stupid assumptions that i can’t write, you asshole. Why would you do that to me? WHY??!?

Heehee i kid.

Writing is something i spend a lot of time thinking about, but not actually doing, i’d like to write for a few hours each day. I just lack motivation. I guess it’s because i’m constantly thinking that no matter what i write it’ll end up stuck in my hard drive never going any where. Maybe that’s why i write this blog. To get random writings out there. If ya’ll think it’s good enough then maybe i’ll start putting myself out there.

But hey. Isn’t rejection part of the writers life. If you can’t take rejection you probably shouldn’t be a writer.

6 Comments on “I am a Fucking Writer.

  1. The line between being a writer and having something to say people actually want to read is so thin these days, not like you can really train yourself because there is a lot of “situation” readers in this world, I read stuff only if I have a reason to. anyways hope you get your donation lol

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    • You’re not wrong. ‘Situation’ readers will read anything so long as it fits in with what they like (i.e, Jersey Shore). I write about what i like or hate, hoping there are people out here who like/hate that same thing or think that same way.

      I could never bring myself to write about Jersey Shore, even if it brought in 10’s of thousands of readers. It would be wrong, to me anyway.

      I would be cool to get other people to help pay off my debt though.

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      • writing has little to do with putting words on paper/screen and everything to do with telling a story.

        when you are board out of your mind at your job or pick someone nearby and create a character back story that ends with them walking into your job and goes back to their birth. once you’ve got it, tell it in their voice.

        when you master that, you’ll be better than 95% of the “writers” out there. also, it’ll help you make it through the 2nd most mind numbing job on the planet.

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