I’ve Only Myself To Blame.

How Do You Set Time Goals?

There are hundreds of books I want to read and Lots to study, but I never seem to have the time.

This is what I tell myself anyway, but the truth of the matter is, I have plenty of time, I just don’t know how to use it properly.

I get home from work around 17:00 – 17:30, and I usually go to bed around 00:00. That gives me 6.5 – 7 hours every day to myself.

That is plenty of time to read, and study.

Even if I spent 2 hours every day doing each that still leaves me with 2.5 – 3 hours.

In stead of doing this stuff I spend my time online/social media or watching TV, usually the same shows over and over… I get caught in a loop and find it hard to break the cycle/habit. I get comfortable In doing nothing rather than what I say I’d like to be doing and then I complain about not having the time to do those things.

Routine, I get into one and have difficulty getting out of it. This routine isn’t exactly conducive with how I’d like to be.

How’d I’d Like to be, an Author. I’d like to be a published author, I want to write crime fiction. I have lots (30+) of ideas for stories and clearly have the time to write them but I don’t because I can’t escape my own laziness.

In order to write the best crime fiction that I can I’m trying to study criminology/Psychopathy and other topics that will help create better heroes and villains, but again, my laziness gets in the way. I get in from work (landscaping) and shower, eat dinner then veg out in front of the TV watching re-runs or TV shows I’ve bought from iTunes or saved on my Sky+ box.

Then the next day, I complain about not being able to write or study.

I need to find a way to break the habit and take back control of my time. I NEED to stop watching so much TV, I NEED start studying, and I NEED to start writing.

If a writer, writes, then I can’t call myself a writer.
If a student studies, then I can’t call myself a student.

If a time waster wastes time, then that is what I am. I time waster.

I want better things for myself but lack the drive, and maybe the ambition to work for it. We are constantly told that if you work hard enough for something, you’ll achieve it, well, I don’t really work for what I want let alone work hard for it. I’ve gotten comfortable doing things a certain way. I’ve gotten in to a routine. And maybe I’m slightly OCD, butI find it hard to break that routine. (This OCD thing could be just another excuse in a long line of excuses)

I’ve Only myself to blame.

How it should be;

Free Daily Hours
1. 5 – 6pm. Shower, Prepare and Eat Dinner.
2. 6 – 7pm. Study (Read the material and take notes).
3. 7 – 8pm. Study (Read the material and take notes).
4. 8 – 9pm. Work on current book project.
5. 9 – 10pm. Work on current book project.
6. 10 – 11pm. Read a book.
7. 11 – 12am. Read a book.
Go to bed.

This is how it should be, in my mind. TV is then a luxury saved for a job well done or the weekend. But I think if I jump right into this I will fail. I’ll want to watch TV even more. So maybe a compromise. I spend 3 hours, daily, 1 hour studying. 1 hour Writing. 1 hour reading. The rest of the time (3.5 – 4 hours) is whatever time… though if I do that the whatever time will turn into all the time. Maybe I do need to just jump right in. Study study, write write, read read. I mean if you want something, WORK FOR IT, right?

What do you guys think of this, should I jump in head first or ease myself in slowly.

Jump right in and risk failure.
Ease myself in and see how it goes.

But I guess if I wanted it bad enough, I wouldn’t be asking the question.

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